Thinking

I was reading about the thinking of people with eating disorders, addictions and other obsessive thinking and found that many professionals think that the person with these disorders think that the thinking is all about the addiction itself. I think that this would be a faulty type of thinking, yes at some point it does become all about the addiction when the ill person is no longer able to "think rationally" and is actually ill. But, when the original cycle began the thinking of the anorexic or alcoholic was not all about I have to not eat because I am fat(even though in actuality my weight is 72 lbs.) or drink that next whisky because this may be the last drink I may ever have. There is an actual root of the problem that these professionals are not seeing. The anorexic or bulimic is possibly thinking of controlling weight only because at the root of their problem they have never felt like they have had control of anything and have never felt like they have been meaningful to anyone at all in their lifetime. By controlling their weight, the only thing they feel the can control they feel that they can control whether they are existing in this life or not. Their evidence in life is actually recorded by their size and existence, fading when not feeling meaningful and gaining when feeling somewhat more meaningful. The same holds true for other addictions. When a person is feeling more confident with themselves they are more likely not to exhibit their addictive behaviors, but when feeling more defensive and less confident they are likely to express their feelings throught their behaviors and addictive behaviors become more evident.