Accepting Yourself

Once not so very long ago I didn't know who I was, this caused me problems. By not knowing who I was I didn't know how to like myself and by not liking myself I could not allow others to really know me and like me. At the time that this was going on I didn't realize that I wasn't letting friends and family really know  who I was and I didn't know that I wasn't allowing anyone into my heart. By opening myself and learning about who I am and realizing that I am worth loving myself and letting other people, including my family love me I have found that was exactly what I was doing. I was very closed and very unprepared to have anyone in my life loving my and accepting me for who I am. I did not even accept me as I was. 

After many counselors and people had told me that I needed to accept and forgive myself, I finally realized that there might be something to what they were saying. It is so hard to believe others when they are telling you things that you do not necessarily want to hear them. I was firmly set in the belief that I was not worth loving and I did not know how I fit in to the mix of life. This is how I set forth on my journey of healing was to find out how I fit and who I was. I had dwindled away into nothing and felt like I was no one, but I knew that there was a greater being out there that knew who I was and how I belonged, these were questions I had been asking for a long time.

This week with losing my sister, I have found that she was trying to find a lot of the same answers to the same questions I have had now and in the past. She may have looked in some of the wrong places, but so did I. She was a woman who was faithful and trying to heal. She loved her children and family and wanted to make a difference in her life. Her life has ended too soon and now I want to make sure that her legacy goes on. Reach out to the people in your life, don't be afraid to ask for help. Friends and family love you and want you to be with them and want to help you get help and want to help you. We are all worthy of love and forgiveness! Forgive yourself for what you have done and love yourself. Let your friends and family close to you. Share your feelings with them, share your fears, hopes and happiness. It is important to get the help and to seek health, but it is also important to be wary of doctors and their medications. 

Happiness and health come within and with the guidance of faith, not from other sources. It is necessary to feel in this life, especially to feel love.